Midnight thoughts

 My heart feels so far away, 

I can’t remember the last time I’ve actually felt alive,

I can’t even remember my childhood memories,

All these things and feelings that eat me alive everyday, 

Keep trying to find a way to escape,

And I keep pushing it back, 

In order to keep the past from haunting me,

And turning my soul into rock,

Since that’s the only thing as a child I was ever taught

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